I found my husband’s ring today and any other day it would have brought me to tears. Today I placed it with mine and went about my day.
The truth is I don’t want a divorce. I have actually begged him to work through things with me, go to a counselor with me, I’m willing to do anything, but I get no response. It has completely torn me apart and I’ve fought my way through this darkness for nearly two months.
A few days ago I was at work and in a patient’s room. It was early morning and we were both silent as I was at the computer charting. She suddenly says, “when God closes a door He always opens a window, and you’re always better for it in the end”. Then she went silent. Tears came to my eyes because I am sure she was talking about her circumstances, but I know God sent that message for me! I quickly left the room and cried. But it was a good cry. God meets you where you are and knows what you need when you need it.
That was a pivotal moment for me. I gave it up to God and know I’ll be better off at the end of this tunnel. Not to say I won’t ever be sad about it, but I’m at peace and know He has a greater plan for me. I am deserving of a real true and love.